Here she is, a "beautiful mess", a self portrait...I was feeling sort of defeated when I did this one. As a mother of an ODD child in her tweens, by the end of the day ( or lately, by the time she walks out the door to catch the bus in the morning) I am completely mentally and physically drained. If you don't know what ODD is, it stands for oppositional defiant disorder, and it is a moment by moment battle for me to stay calm, focused, firm, fair and consistent in my dealings with my daughter. ODD coupled with anxiety and a mood disorder make my daughter extremely hard to be around sometimes. I love her dearly and unconditionally, but sometimes I just want to lock myself in my room and bury my head under the covers and pray, cry, scream or just shut down completely...but I can't do that, because I love my girls...someone has to keep the peace and try and maintain the sanity in our household....so anyway, that is how I was feeling when I did this face.
On the flip side, when my daughter is feeling good, she is funny, witty, creative and downright brilliant! Sort of like living with a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde personality. She has a beautiful spirit, and a heart that is bigger than even she knows! And anyway...sorry for going off about all that, but that is the story behind this face, and now you know a little something about me that you probably didn't know before! This was my art therapy for the week!
A "beautiful Mess" is the state my heart and soul are in most of the time. I think those two words describe how I feel and where a lot of my art is created from...Juliette Crane. She does really cute owls and animals, but I like Juliette's faces the best! I couldn't really capture her style with the ipad, but I love her loose, painterly style and the way her art makes me feel, and she has some incredible backgrounds in her artwork as well.