Here she is, a "beautiful mess", a self portrait...I was feeling sort of defeated when I did this one. As a mother of an ODD child in her tweens, by the end of the day ( or lately, by the time she walks out the door to catch the bus in the morning) I am completely mentally and physically drained. If you don't know what ODD is, it stands for oppositional defiant disorder, and it is a moment by moment battle for me to stay calm, focused, firm, fair and consistent in my dealings with my daughter. ODD coupled with anxiety and a mood disorder make my daughter extremely hard to be around sometimes. I love her dearly and unconditionally, but sometimes I just want to lock myself in my room and bury my head under the covers and pray, cry, scream or just shut down completely...but I can't do that, because I love my girls...someone has to keep the peace and try and maintain the sanity in our household....so anyway, that is how I was feeling when I did this face.
On the flip side, when my daughter is feeling good, she is funny, witty, creative and downright brilliant! Sort of like living with a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde personality. She has a beautiful spirit, and a heart that is bigger than even she knows! And anyway...sorry for going off about all that, but that is the story behind this face, and now you know a little something about me that you probably didn't know before! This was my art therapy for the week!
A "beautiful Mess" is the state my heart and soul are in most of the time. I think those two words describe how I feel and where a lot of my art is created from...
Hi, I love your art . . . it is easy to see that you are very passionate about it. I haven't visited for sometime now, but wanted to invited you over to put your name in the hat for my current Give-Away.
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Your blogging sister, Connie :)
Hi,I have only just found y!. Thank you for your inspiration and your honesty. My youngest has ADHD and I know exactly what you mean by constant peace keeping, it can be very draining. But as you said they also have a beautiful, loving and caring side too. Im definitely with you on this and understand but that is what makes us better people and you a fabulous artist because you show the truth in your paintings. Im going to subscribe to your blog as you have helped me already! Love and Blessings, Sharon xx
ReplyDeleteHi,I have only just found y!. Thank you for your inspiration and your honesty. My youngest has ADHD and I know exactly what you mean by constant peace keeping, it can be very draining. But as you said they also have a beautiful, loving and caring side too. Im definitely with you on this and understand but that is what makes us better people and you a fabulous artist because you show the truth in your paintings. Im going to subscribe to your blog as you have helped me already! Love and Blessings, Sharon xx
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